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Before You Say by ladybug95, literature

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Before You Say

Before You Say… Before you say something like, “I have OCD” or “That really bothers my OCD”, think. How would you saying that effect someone who truly was clinically diagnosed with OCD? Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, known as OCD, is a mental illness that causes people to have obsessive thoughts and/or act on compulsions. With the current stigma of people with mental illnesses, why would you willingly label yourself as, “mentally ill”? Why would you purposefully make yourself “one of them” or an “outcast of society”? Before you say this, think of those of us who struggle

What am I Waiting For? by ladybug95, literature

Literature

What am I Waiting For?

What's one more day in this hell of a world? I'm tired of trying, Sick of the pain. I feel like I'm getting nowhere, Maybe I am insane? They tell me to work hard, But do they really see? I'm in so much pain, Only I can believe. I've tried to act brave, And seem put together. When really inside, I'm crushed and I'm tethered. They say to be happy, So I fake a smile. They say I'm alright, I nod, knowing they are wrong. They tell me to deal with life, But they don't know the struggle. To wake up everyday, And wish you were dead? They don't care about how I feel, Telling me to toughen up. I've tried this before, I've gotten nowhere. Where is

Trapped by ladybug95, literature

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Trapped

When I look outside, I see how happy they are I wonder why I can't be like them The world I live in is completely different than theirs, I'm trapped between four brick walls, unable to leave I'm constantly supervised with little to no time alone I don't have any friends here, my family can only visit I sit in a room every weekday, wishing and dreaming that I'm in school Reality is, I've been deemed as graduated, so I'm left to my own bearings The only job that I have is to pull a bag of dirty wash cloths and towels to a locked door I sometimes am given the task to take a paper bag of trash to another trash bin in another room, but that happen

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Before You Say by ladybug95, literature

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Trapped by ladybug95, literature

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Trapped

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Fill in the Blank by xxnefariousxx, literature

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Fill in the Blank

To my parents, I tell you this: I'm so sorry that my life's a mess. But you're both impossible to impress So because of you, I cut. “I am not worth it”, “I deserve pain” Are the ridiculous voices in my brain That leave my arms bloodied and slain So because of these thoughts, I cut. It's a morbid addiction I fight everyday. And every night I silently pray That I'll wake up and just be “okay”, But I'm not. So because of this truth, I cut. I'm so desperate to be free And resume life as the “old” me. Open my eyes and bravely see the daunting road to recovery. It's long. It's arduous, but filled

Make It Through The Night by starcrossed-hate23, literature

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Make It Through The Night

I saw you reach for my hand though I pushed you away Heard you whisper 'I love you' and made me promise I'd stay Our fingers entwined, my free hand hid my face Though the tears bled through and flooded every empty space I tore my hand from yours and searched desperately for air As I left your side, the scars on my skin became ever-growing tears I allowed them to open, desperate for freedom from myself The more I let it flow, the further I felt from my inner Hell When the pain had all but desensitized me to every single touch And everything before my eyes had suddenly begun to rush You pulled me from the blackness as I sank further, further

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Artist // Hobbyist // Varied

Jan 30, 1995
United States
Deviant for 15 years
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My name is Haley. I am currently a college student with an Associates of Science degree. I really enjoy doing almost anything art related, in particularly pottery and drawing with colored pencils. I also enjoy doing photography, beading, sewing, knitting, and sometimes digital art.

I don't exactly consider myself an artist, but I enjoy making art. I have a hard time posting art because I feel that it isn't good enough. I guess I am what one would consider as a "perfectionist" when it comes to these kind of things.

Favourite TV Shows

The Mentalist

Favourite Books

Warriors Series

Favourite Games

Legend of Zelda Series, Dark Cloud 1 & 2, Portal 1 & 2

Favourite Gaming Platform

Nintendo DS, Wii, Gameboy, & Playstation 2

Tools of the Trade

Colored Pencils, Clay, Pottery Wheel, Nikon D5000

Other Interests

Anything Art Related, Cats, Video Games, Reading, etc.

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ladybug95

Feb 15, 2016

Plans Change...!

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Looking at my last journal, I spoke much about school.  While I am still a student in college, I am attempting a new focus in my studies.  It will still focus greatly on the sciences and medical field, but I am working towards learning more through the field of Medical Laboratory Technology.  There are many reasons for this new path, but it is something that I am looking forward to and excited to begin! In regards to my art... I may be adding some after I can get back into it a bit more.  I am beginning to take up sewing and have planned a few alterations to make into a costume for a favorite character of mine.  I created something using pie

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ladybug95

Apr 1, 2014

It's Fourth Quarter... ALREADY?!

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I am starting my fourth quarter of college tomorrow!   Last quarter went really well grade wise... ALL A's!  Even in my Anatomy Lab and Lecture!  That was the hardest class last quarter! I wasn't on ever because I was really busy with school work and studying.  Also, I lost a very good friend of mine in February... :( Putting the mixture of all of these together caused a great deal of stress, sadness, and no motivation to work on anything art related. But guess what!?  I am taking an art class this quarter, so I will hopefully have some art to post!  I'm not majoring in art, but I need a humanities credit for my prerequisites for Nursing S

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ladybug95

Sep 22, 2013

Another update?

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Life has been hectic!   I just finished my first quarter of college!  It was hard, but I survived.  The school I attend goes on a quarter system rather than a semester system, thus meaning I am done with my classes, for now.  I start school up again October 2nd, so I get a week off from it all. As you may have noticed, I recently posted eight literature pieces.  They are part of a series of writings that I wrote while I was in the hospital a few weeks ago.  If you missed them, here are the links to all eight parts. Part 1: Insanity in My Head Part 2: The Outside World Part 3: Sixteen Teal Tiles Part 4: Inability to Eat Part 5: The Sleepy Ou

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Thank you for the favorite!

Happy birthday!

!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

It's January 30^th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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